"Хорошо, когда знаешь, где ты. Тогда ты знаешь, где посмотреть, кто ты" (с)
вот интересно: если (не дай бог!) случится со мной такая беда, как амнезия... и я, чтобы вспомнить, кто я на самом деле, решу залезть в свой дневник... что я о себе подумаю?!
интересный был бы опыт.. но некоторые вещи не хочется забывать! так что: сделаю себе "заначку на будущее") и
мои любимые фразы:
"Everything I see on you is dead. Your hair is dead protein strands. It's nothing. You can dye it and change it and cut it and grow it, but that's always what it is--basically nothing. It's you, it's always you, but it's still nothing. Your skin--the outside, the parts I can see, it's dead. Dead cells. You can colour it, like you've done, and it adds to your personality. Like your hair. Everything I can see on you reflects your personality. The personality I know better than anyone. I wanted to know you. The real you. The you that moved, that stretched, that ran and jumped and hugged and kissed. You're so alive when you move. You can be dead and I'll still see your pretty face, but your movement overpowers every dead thing about you. I can see you."
читать дальше"Are you very excited to see How the Grinch Stole Christmas?"
"So terribly excited. I've been wanting to steal Christmas myself for years, but I've just been waiting for the instructional video."
Frank wondered if he would spend the entire night trying to read these kinds of signals, and if he would be certifiably insane from doing so by the end of the movie.
Mikey passed him the container of popcorn and Frank took a handful, chewing mechanically. "Freegan," Mikey hissed. "There's butter in it." Frank did not feel like debating the ethical consumption of what amounted to yellow chemical sludge.
"Dude, I can only take about fifteen minutes of Jim Carrey's facial nonsense. Remind me of that the next time I suggest we go watch one of his movies."
"Ahhh, nicotine withdrawal," Gerard moaned, zombie-like. "I'll go with you."
“I’m sure you’re an excellent lover.”
“Tender and thoughtful,”
“Manly and masterful.”
“Gentle yet powerful.”
“Exotic and flavorful.”
“All right!”
And then what would he do? He’d have to go and live in a cabin. In the woods. For real.
And there wouldn’t be any cell phone reception there either, and the internet wouldn’t work, and no-one would come visit and his parents would forget they had two sons and no-one would remember he ever existed and he’d die alone, all alone, and his corpse would get eaten by elk. Elks? Elkii. Whatever.
Oh God. It was so dark. It was the end of the *world*.
“Yeah.” he changed the subject to Alternative Careers they Might Have Had, then Who Would Play them in The Movie, followed by Time they had Wasted doing Stupid Shit, moving on to Who They would Leave all their Stuff To, and finally, People They Wished they had Slept With.
He could not believe he was going to die, locked in a storeroom, with a moron. Although. Better that than alone in a cabin with a hungry elk.
“You can look at me, man, you won’t turn to stone.”
List of Stuff to Do That Day.
He didn’t running screaming when *Frank* took steps, but that was step in itself for Gerard.
He went back to the kitchenette and made the cup of coffee that had got him into this mess.
“You won’t beat me,” he said to it, inhaling the precious, caffeinated steam. “Because I can drink you, see?”
“Fuck you,” said Gerard, but he couldn’t help smiling.
Frank just grinned. “Promises, promises.”
"You know Gerard, you should really stop talking to yourself or people will start to think you're crazy," said Frank quietly, as he shut the door behind him.
"I'm not crazy, my reality is just different than yours"
"Please, not again. I'm tired of going to so many funerals. My funerals."
"Hey, I have an idea. Why don't you shut up before I decide to write a one-shot in which you get man-pregnant?!!? You don't want that," she snarled.
Gerard blinked and said, "No...no, I don't. So...how 'bout I go and die now?"
He had this huge lettering "Keep The Faith"
His eyes were all red, mostly from continuously trying to rub the sleep out of them. The sand man either hadn’t visited Frank, or he had and just got beaten to death when he tried.
WAKEY WAKEY RISE AND SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIINE!
BUGGER OFF
AGH! BURNY BURNY BURNY BURNY
Mikey and Ray walked over, eating bacon sandwiches, Mikey was complaining that it tastes better fried, but you could tell he wasnt really bothered.
"Eugh, dead pig" Frank commented. Mikey waved the sandwich infront of Franks face.
"Mmmm, lovely dead pig!" He laughed. Frank moved as far back into the sofa as he could, wrinkling up his nose.
'Say anything - alive with the glory of love'.
Just because I'm not a dwarf cough Frank cough, or look all sweet and innocent cough Mikey cough, or be all mysterious and 'knowing' BIG cough Gerard cough doesn't mean I'm ugly.
"I guess its because your obsessed with vampires, so you'd know how to protect me"
Truth or Dare
Homophobia is GAY
Rainmaker
"You can't use 'fuck you too' in a retaliation unless the first person says 'fuck you' to start with."
My arms wrapped around his neck and I burrowed my face into his shoulder … wondering if I could lay there long enough to sink into his body entirely.
“Hold out your hands, and shut your eyes, then you’ll get a big surprise.”
Thats Frank for you- Hyper 24-7
“Cross my heart, hope to die…”
The first clod of dirt hit my casket and then the next thing I knew I was buried.
I just had a rough night-slash-morning.
"Dude, Frank, wake up."
"Don't shoot me"
"Dude! Shut up! "
SLIPPERS!!!
"Two negatives make a positive, right?" he
"That's only if you multiply them, dumbass. You add them and it makes it twice as worse. You did pass middle school math, didn't you?"
"Why does the bird sing when it's about to die a lonely life?"
"Because there always were too many fish in the sea..."
Smoking in darkness was different, however stupid that sounds. In the light, you're more open, it's more obvious; you know you're harming your body, but it doesn't make a difference because it's public. In darkness, though, it almost seems that you can feel the poison in the smoke -- and it's so much more deadly when you can't see what the hell it is.
Shut up & Sleep
"It's Thanksgiving, And I'm thankful I have YOU!"
"Meanie!"
"Let's play Spin The Bottle!"
Mr. Giggles
'You only have one life to live.'
After no response Frank looked through his kitchen door, there stood Gerard at the window breathing upon it. He drew a heart in his breath.
"No, it's just PMS."
"PMS?"
"Yeah pissy man syndrome."
"I wanna watch a movie."
"All I have is porn."
"Mmm.../my/ blanket," he softly mumbled
"Good morning, sleepyhead."
"He really looked tired."
"Your brother always looks tired."
'Between midnight and one the dead walk.'
you can’t cross enemy grounds without being shot down first.
“Thanks for being what you’ve been, doing what you’ve done.”
"Yeah, well, I don't believe in God. Or eating meat. So you sit over there and eat your dead cow and I'll enjoy my French fries over here."
ring finger
star struck child
first lovers spat
Deathdays and Birthdays
"God..." Frank muttered, turning his face to the ceiling, "Someone, PLEASE, just kill me right now and get it over with it."
"Are you incapable of communicating without the use of vulgar language?"
“I’m not going to fight him,” I hiss through clenched teeth. “I’m just going to kill him in his sleep.”